After my previous break up I spent a lot of alone time. I spent weekends going on walks, catching up with old friends, cooking new recipes and just treating myself.
and then I got into another relationship. I told myself that this time, I’ll make sure I remember how to hang out with myself despite having a partner.
but then time passed, and eventually I couldn’t remember the last time I went out on my own for an entire day. If I had an empty day, my first thought was to hang out with him or another friend. I know it’s not just because of the relationship; it’s also just the chaos of every day life.
and so today I finally went out by myself. Took myself out on a date.
And I felt feelings that I hadn’t felt in a long time. I felt just a little more proud and happy of who I am. I felt selfish in a good way. I felt relieved to know that even if I neglect her (me?) unintentionally for a while, she’s always there when I need her.