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My heart hurts... I don't know how much longer I can go on for. I looked at the pack of medication and started to open it. One by One. But I could not do it. I only took 4... The funny thing is I called my GP this morning to see I could get antidepressants, but they didn't have any appointments left, is this the universe telling me it's time? This is not the first time I did this. I have tried twice already. How weak does this make me, I can't actually go through it but at the same time, I am too weak to keep on going? None of my friends know about this, I put a happy face on for everyone. Knowing that my own mum thinks I am a whore, stupid, a waste of space, selfish goes through my head. I want to prove her wrong but I am too weak