JOIN THE COMMUNITY
Well... here's a song I wrote about that lol :)
Oh God, you mean to tell me I wasn't the only one dealing with it?
I graduated in July, expecting it would be oh so easy to get a job - I have a pretty good degree, to be honest. But guess what?
It was not easy. At all.
Nothing could have prepared me for the hunt, I swear. I applied for hundreds of jobs. At some point, I applied for jobs that where way under what I was actually meant to do. Even those didn't work out. Interviews were always great, but somehow all ended the same.
I hunted for months. I got in a really bad place at some point, feeling useless, feeling like all the effort in Uni was for nothing and that I had absolutely no purpose. All my plans - I had lots of plans - were pushed back or completely destroyed, because I had no money.
I had to go back home to a country-side type of town, and let me tell you, it's pretty goddamn hard to find a job as an engineer when you are surrounded by fields and cows and pigs and- yeah.
My boyfriend would get impatient sometimes - we graduated at the same time with the same degree, but, you'll never guess, males have a higher chance of getting employed in the technical domain, can you believe it? He had reason to get impatient, to be honest. I was kind of holding him back, too, but it wasn't from lack of trying, you know?
And then salvation came, right before Christmas. So now I have a job, but you know what? This doesn't make me feel more adult. It somehow feels like going to school, still. I still feel like I need to depend on my family, I still feel like I can't make it on my own.
What I'm trying to say is, I don't think we would ever feel like real adults. We were raised with the ideology that, as adults, we will have all the answers. Well, I don't see myself knowing all the answers. Hell, if asked what type of coffee I like, I can'd actually answer, because I drink it different every time. And I drink a lot of coffee.
So adulthood is not a feeling, I guess. Maybe we just have to fake it 'till we make it. I bet that's what everyone does.
Also, work/money doesn't solve all the problems, but it sure as hell helps.
Mental health is priceless dw. Do what u gta do
When Bridgerton prepares you more for life than uni ever will 🥲